Was it truly your purpose of learning this language?

I personally have a lot of answers regarding this question. The one that 7-year-old me would say: “To pass the test,” and 15-year-old me would beg to differ, “I want to be an English major student,” she said. 

While the two had passed the test and had become a student of the English Literature department, both girls have achieved their childhood goals and fulfilled their teenage dreams. 

Then what about the sophomore me? What is her purpose? I can imagine “To survive the semesters,” no doubt — considering that girl is battling her deepest darkest desire, to procrastinate. 

Then what about me? The one who chose ‘English Language Teaching’ as the specialization area in her third year of university? Also, the one who graduated from English Literature and is currently working as a freelance English Teacher that her monthly wage only one part four of her actual living cost? What exactly is her purpose? People would probably be thinking, “Well, duh? To teach English better?” 

It sounds right, doesn’t it? 

But is it truly her purpose? Or is it merely a label that the people and society put on her as a girl who studies English at college?

“It is completely useless, because in college we can study and achieve so much more,” isn’t that what they always say? 

Because, yes, what else is there to achieve, other than becoming a teacher — not that there is something wrong with it — when a girl is simply reading an English classic or some fictional story on a daily basis? 

God forbid a girl have an intellectual. 

Why didn’t they try to come for this major and study field, to see that there is so much more to that? There are so many layers of goals contained inside her purpose. Suffice it to say that there is not enough reason for her to stop learning because her list is still going on. 

“To broaden her knowledge,” that is one thing. 

“To achieve better chances and opportunities in life,” that is another. 

Also, “To experience art and literature first hand, because those are all that’s left to see in this terribly fucked up world,” is not a bad example. 

Why stop at one goal and be content with it when you know you can put the entire world in the palm of your hands? All you need is one dream away.